Hello. Long time no see. I'm back with another concern because I'm a noob in love.

So, I have this guy friend, whom I treat like my own older brother (he's 1 year older than me). We had the funniest twist to our lives - happened that he's actually a student of my school but moved out to another school on the year I enrolled. We knew each other from... Facebook...? And I happened to how his friends too. All in all, we're close to each other - we used to text all day but after he left for university, we both got busy and rarely kept in touch. But, we do fight to be the first one to wish each other's birthday up until this date. He called me sis, I called him bro. 

Lately, he's been throwing the "I love you" whenever we held conversations. And he'll be sulking if I didn't reply to his "confessions". Look, I do not know if it's normal because he never threw the words to me throughout the 6 years of knowing each other. Yes, it's been 6 years. And he began to say the words lately, and as a confused early adult who believes she had failed in all of her relationships, began to think it's a subtle hint from him. I chose not to care, but I begun to think about it even more. (side note: Why the heck he started to say those words?!) And sad to say, I kind of like it. I liked the feeling of being loved. Who doesn't? Love makes you a better man. Wrong love makes you worse than before. You see, we don't really contact each other after being in university. Both of us were getting busy, our schedules were hectic, there's no time to text all day like we used to.

Starting last day of puasa, which was 2 days ago, we started to be like we used to be. We chatted, texted, and I, unknowingly smiled to see his name lighted up on my phone. "Just brothers," I thought. Oh, I'm more comfortable to be a bro than a sis to my guy friends so it's too common to my ears to hear them calling me "My bro" so... Yeah. Yesterday, though it was 1st day of raya, we texted all day long. From morning till 2am in the morning. Only gap was us, falling asleep coincidentally on the same time. What kind of madness is this, though? This is definitely not love... I guess so? I don't think he sees me as a girl. He's way too comfortable with me to talk about every single thing, like every thing. One thing I learnt from movies, dramas, novels, and past relationships is, no guy wants to be with the girl who knows everything about him. So I'm totally out from the list...?

I don't know. I don't know anything. I have no courage to ask him - I treasure our friendship; or as what he calls it - virtual relationship. I love him, I do. I loved him since 2009, but as a sister. Nothing more nothing less. But this love is getting to another level. I need to throw all this mothafcking feelings away. I'm not comfortable, I'm sure he's not comfortable as well if he ever reads/knows about this. I hope he stops saying 'I love you' to me - it gave me hope, but at the same time I want him to keep on saying that - I love being loved by others. The heck is wrong with me? I thought my last relationship has proved to me that I'm not ready to fall in love... I thought I'm going to live by fangirling over Korean men for another few years... Was the "confessions" he said a subtle hint? Or was he saying he loves me as a brother? I am confused. Heck. Being a girl is tiring :(

Assalamualaikum.

It's the final day for us to stroll around in Seoul before going back to Malaysia. Since we barely had any energy left due to excessive walking for few days straight, we decided to go to visit the famous universities nearby. I basically chose the hostel to be in Sinchon/Hongdae area as it's packed with youngsters, and I really want to observe their fashion sense and all.

Before going out, we made breakfast. It was the only day I had complete meal for breakfast. I cooked maggi while Ina made half-boiled eggs for us. We met the remaining 6 persons who supposed to join our trip but we sat at different tables and barely had interaction besides saying hi and asking short questions.

The first university we went to visit was the nearest one to our hostel, which is Ewha Women's University. To speak the truth, the structure and surrounding were outstanding! And there are lots of shops and eateries just after exiting the main gate. Lucky Korean universities' students for having such good place to study at!

We didn't actually visit the whole area, we just took pictures at the place near to the main gate and then set foot to the second university, which is Hongik University (Hongdae). I don't know we entered through which gate but we saw buildings of art faculty right after going up the hill. But the view wasn't really nice, or maybe we didn't get to see the nice parts of Hongik University.

There was this handsome oppa (I think he's an oppa, hahaha) leaning at this signboard opposite Hongik's gate and I've been curious and always want to see his face. He wore face mask so I basically saw his eyes, but he totally caught my attention. To that oppa, 연락해주세요! Hahahaha. We then stopped at Paris Baguette for brunch (lol yeah brunch.... it was me who feels hungry and wanted something to drink hahaha) and wow, I must say Paris Baguette has the best coffee among other cafes I tried in Korea.

We then head to Yonsei University, and it took a really long walk from the main gate to the main building. The buildings along the road were under construction, and I saw those controversial notices put on by students protesting about something which I don't really read about it properly. Imanina's foot was killing her and I really felt sorry for her, but what to do, we're in a trip and I don't really want to waste our day by only being in our room.

It felt like dreams come true to finally able to step in universities that I wanted to enrol in. The views were nice, the buildings are pretty, and everything just... I don't know. They caught my eyes, every single one of them. And then began the endless comparing of how Malaysian universities looked like haha. Or maybe it's only UiTM that looked typically ugly :/

We then went to Myeongdong, again, to meet Kak Shiema. It was really cold that night, so I bought gyeran ppang (egg bread) from nearest stall but it wasn't enough so I bought ddeokbokki (spicy rice cake). The sauce was really red, and it basically left red marks on my hands. Needed to wash hands for few times with soap to get rid of the red colour. We walked around Myeongdong with Kak Shiema and entered Nature Republic, where EXO is the face for the shop. And guess what?

...yeah. The section was closed but we didn't know about that so we kept on taking pictures with them before the promoter basically asked us to leave the section haha we immediately exited the shop. All of us then head back and part ways with Kak Shiema. It's time to take our belongings from the hostel and head to airport. The long journey was tiring and I was completely out of energy. We decided to sleep at the airport since our flight was on 9:35AM and we need to check in and everything by 6.20AM. Worrying that we might not make it there if we're still at the hostel, we checked out earlier and stayed at the airport for 7 hours or so? I forgot haha. 

And... that's all for our journey in Korea :) Not really told in details, and not really as interesting as what you thought it might be. Still, it's a memory to be cherished forever :)