People around me are getting married and most of them are my peers. People with same age range with me. Do I feel jealous? Of course, I do. Seeing that most of my peers found their soulmates and ended up marrying and live happily as a couple... It is seriously the nicest thing on Earth.

Congratulations to those who got their status changed from single to married :)

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This will be a post about me swimming through my own thoughts. Read if you want, close if you feel lazy to do so because this is purely me vs my thoughts, difference is this will be in written form. I warned you, so yeah.

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So I had this friend, a male friend, for about 6 years. I dated him back then, hahaha well it was during my zaman jahiliah when having a date looks cool and awesome ohgodwhy but we didn't last long since it was only cinta monyet lewlz yeah you could say that back then, love is my game. 

We lost contact for a year and somehow, he added me on Facebook and apparently he still remembers my phone number. So yeah, he contacted me, and we talked normally as what friends do. He did ask to be mine again, but I have no faith in him. He cheated on me back then, and I caught him dating with multiple girls during that time. Of course, I knew everything since I am a certified stalker. Yay.

I had him rejected and he stopped contacting me. Even changed to a new number. Again, we couldn't contact each other but this time, it is for about... 3 or 4 years? I was unintentionally searching for his name on Twitter since I was thinking of him that day. To be really honest, I forget most of the things happened in my past (excludes the ones that leave deep scars in me) but yeah, I forgot most of the events I went through before.

So I found his Twitter, followed him and tweeted him without expecting any reply since, well, he ignored me before. Unexpectedly, he replied to mine and he said that he's happy that I contacted him back...? Lol siapa taknak contact siapa dulu ni oi. After a few times of replying short text messages with him constantly saying I love you, I asked for explanation.

"I still love you" - so you only realized after years that you need/love me? Nahh maybe it's not me that you want. Maybe. Lol yeah ignored. Teehee. But another problem(?) came out. I can't seem to contact him (the other him, not the person I mentioned before in this post) and it's been days and I'm worried if anything happens to him :(

I hope you are doing fine.

Holiday's ending yet you're nowhere to be found.............................................

I miss you so much so please text me when you're okay