Hello, peeps.

I am now in Jengka, doing a short semester program (intersession) to retake MAT233 (Calculus 2) which I failed before. Today is officially my fourth day in UiTM Pahang, though intersession just started yesterday. After 3 semesters being a non-resident back in Arau, I got to feel being a resident, again. I was placed at room A3-40, Block A (Aishah), Kolej Tun Teja.

Yes, I'd love to compare both campuses I've been to (UiTM Perlis and UiTM Pahang).

Plus points for UiTM Pahang from my point of view

1. There are 10 colleges available for girls. T-E-N, 10! 8 were new and the other 2 (which one of them is where I am now) were the old college. 
2. For academic blocks, well, since my class is held only at FTA2-16 in the Fast Track building (its 'scientific' name is Leucaena) is okay. Reminds me of UiTM Perlis' Star Complex but way smaller than it. They have this newly built academic building and its situated on top of a small hill - not that high but will be a tiring adventure for those going to class by foot.
3. It is advisable for you to go to classes by foot since the short cuts are truly... short? You can see a major difference if you go by car and by foot. For me, I will usually go to morning class by foot and drive for evening class.
4. Marrybrown is in town like hello they have 3 options for fast foods: KFC, PHD and MB! Beat that, Arau! (Ehem food is important for a fat girl like me ehehew)

Less than 5 days to reach the end of this semester. If I score this semester's finals and get good result, I will only have 1 semester left for diploma. Which means, soon, I will be parting ways with my diploma friends. I might, and might not see them again. I might and might not be in their minds all the time, but after experiencing lots of hardships in finding true friends, I began to treasure some of my diploma's course mates.

Some, not all.

Semester 1 - Seeing new faces for the first time ever. Heard that some of my primary school friends were in the same campus, but only 1 of them is in the same course as mine, which is Amnan. I wasn't close to him since before, so I rarely talk to him. This first semester of diploma; fresh and new chapter of my life begun. I made some friends during orientation week but those friends won't last long. Proven now, though, none of them thought of contacting me first. For the first semester, I was close to Farhana, well basically, with the girls (and boys) in my group. Zharfan, Luqmanul and Zhafri, not to mention the rest, were the closest one to me. Before.

Semester 2 - Kicked out from the resident list so I lived my life as a non-resident instead, and I became closer to Amalina since we lived in the same area. We were the total opposite of each other but like magnet that attracts other magnet with opposite magnetic field; we attract each other because of the difference in our characteristics. Hah, I was close to Nabihah too, since we're like the non-resident team-thingy hahaha. Old times. I became quite distant with others since they're in resident colleges while I... I was alone in the house with literally no housemates since they went out a lot.

Semester 3 - Where everything falls apart. This happened and that happened, suddenly I hate Nabihah while Amalina and I became strangers again, nearing the end of the semester. This was the worst semester, for the record. Bad things happened - I lost my motivation, I lost hope, I lost trust on people, but I gained a car to ease me travelling in Perlis (and Kedah and Penang...) I knew cool guys from other groups and began to hang out with them quite often too. I am not that close to them, but to just be friends with them, I feel so happy :)

Semester 4 - The level of awkwardness between groupmates increased and the distantce between us became larger as well. I moved to a new house and lived together with Aida. New adventure, again. We became the new inseparable twins(?) since most of the times, I'll be seen together with Aida and vice versa. We share so many things in common and it's freaky oh my god! Haha. This semester is a bit plain. All I feel is the gap between other friends and I became deeper and larger. At times, I feel like I'm better off a loner. Without partner.

Ah... Time passes by, cruelly nearing catching up with the time for us to part ways. Yes, I can't wait to graduate and to be away from Perlis because of all the terrible things happened but I couldn't just forget all good friends I met here, right? I just hope that I will always be in their minds, as how often they are in my mind.

Farhana, the cheeky, petite Malay, blessed with Chinese-look.

Aida, the one with brain that I'm jealous of.

Zuhairah, the one who looks the happiest while eating.

Luqmanul, the... the... the bro that loves to belanja people.

Azri, the one perasan artis but full of humorous jokes.

Amnan, the childhood friend who became nice to me :P

Fauzan, the budak I thought sombong but he's humorous and nice.

Syauqi, the one whom I put my full trust in driving my car.

Izwan, the only guy I respected among all - he has good sides despite looking so rempit-ish.

Okay malas nak sebut nama sorang sorang because honestly, I'm not that close to all people pun. It happens that some of the names are listed as they love to borrow my car so they act so baik to me but they are kind so I like them for their kindness hahaha but I will always remember your kindness, the way you treat me. Yay what's with this crappy entry, it's supposed to be emotional and sad and tear-worthy *cries* Tapi aku sayang korang tau, muehehe segan nk cakap okay bye

Gonna hop to convenience store to chill. Kinda. Bye :D

I actually love to talk. At times, I recorded videos of myself talking nonsense and linked them to my friends hahaha which is, a stupid habit, actually. But because of this hobby, I thought of making vlog. Travel vlog, to be exact. As I'm currently studying in Arau, Perlis, I've went to many interesting places and when I wanted to tell about them to my friends, I know they won't have the same image like what I wanted them to imagine to. They couldn't see what I see, they couldn't feel what I feel. So I thought that doing travel vlog is actually a good thing.

Thing is, I have no suitable gadgets for it. I am still collecting money to own a DSLR, as videos recorded by DSLR has a higher quality...? The current camcorder at home can only recorded in low quality. It's not HD. Thus, less feel for the video hahaha do you get what I mean? Like during my trip to Bukit Ayer with classmates before, one of them recorded random videos of us having fun using a DSLR and it comes out really pretty! The super high quality makes it really breathtaking! Wait what, I feel like my English became worst ohmygod

Nahh I won't be like matluthfi since I don't have the skill to be a good vlogger. My communication skills sucks big time, and travel vlog is the best choice for me because I will be recording the sceneries and the details of the places more than I will record myself hahaha agree? And oh, besides travel vlog, I'd upload videos of my hedgehog as well! I already created a Youtube account for it, oops, sorry for being impatient haha.

Okay so let's end the talks of wanting to be a vlogger.

I am actually worried for so many things. Like, I tried my best for this examination but somehow I feel like I will fail certain subjects? I have the confidence that I can actually score but for the previously mentioned 2 subjects, I have the least confidence in them. What if I had to extend 1 semester just to sit for a single paper? What if my parents had enough with me, and eventually will never care about me, the one who always frustrates them in any way?

...

I just got a really shocking news that made me stopped writing my entry for I don't know how many minutes. Anyway, my sister, Shiema, got a really awesome news that she is accepted to be a student in the course she applied for so go and wish her the best!!!! And this marks the end of my entry. I need to study for tomorrow's paper.

Hello,

Wow it's the 6th day of April and I only blogged once in March. Nice. I love being a busy student. Looks like I only able to change the skin for April but not for March :( So yeah, Luhan for April! Why, you ask? He's born in April :)

So, anyway, I'm currently sitting for my finals. Tomorrow, 7th of April, I will be sitting for my fourth paper and also my father's birthday! I don't have anything as present, though. This is me. I'm literally awkward with my parents. I promised them to increase my CGPA and GPA for this semester, but I'm afraid I couldn't achieve that later. I have 2 papers with the least confidence - Linear Algebra I and Practical Approach of Operating Systems.

For Linear Algebra - I admit, I have no idea about the main thing of this subject. All I know it's related to matrices. It was my first paper, and I faced it with obstacles. I was struggling to get all the formulas, I was dying inside to resolve the questions. And I'm doomed. Pretty much sure that I failed big time. I couldn't manage to answer all questions in time given. I'm sorry, mom and dad, I've let you down, again.

For Practical Approach of Operating Systems - let's be honest, it's not that hard. It's pretty much simple but the main problem lies on the lecturer. Our tests and quizzes were marked strictly by following the answer sheet 100%, so those who use different words from the scheme will be deducted marks. And hey, I cheated during the test - I answered by referring to the slides he gave and guess what, the answers are all wrong. I got 8 and a half over 50 for that test. Bam.

I'm doomed. We're doomed. I hope that he will change that attitude of his and try to be more acceptable with students' answers. This is his first semester of teaching - I understood, but I never thought he will be this bad. I mean, younger lecturers are supposed to be more flexible and understand the students more? No?

Anyway, I need to revise for tomorrow with full concentration now. No more playing around. I will try to score no matter what. I've been a really bad student for this semester. Hm.