Assalamualaikum.

It's the first post for year 2014. I started the new year with new life - being single, having my heart wearing a thick layer of steel armour, getting a super bad news for me regarding my diploma studies, and is harassed by an ex who came back after 6 years. 2014 doesn't really start with good news for me, but at least, I am blessed to have those people who still stick around me even when I'm not at my best state. Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for letting me to know them in my life.

Being single? Unfortunately, it's hard to have a happily-ever-after life especially if you dreamed about it when you're madly and happily in love. Right after we part ways, I've read many Twitter updates that relationships that made you anticipate for your significant other to change will absolutely fail. Why? Being in love means to accept the person just the way they are. Humans are imperfect, and it's okay to correct some of his/her mistakes but to expect him/her to immediately change to that imaginary person with criteria that you like is... impossible.

That's the big mistake I did, or should I say, we did. He expects me to be the girl he likes, and I expect him to be the man I adore. This is why love stories, love novels, porn, etc ruin most relationships. People want something that is unreachable, that only exist in fantasy. All those lovey dovey stuffs you see in movies are hardly seen in real life. It exists but is so rare that you won't be able to witness it by yourself. Hitting back on the expecting to change point, yes, I agree that expecting your significant other to be pious is good but, expecting him/her to be the exact same thing like your imaginary boyfriend/girlfriend is... a big bucket full of nope.

So now, after being hurt and surprisingly not crying after being left by the guy that I seriously think he's the man, I'm moving on. Come on, 3 years of being single and you're doing just fine, Hakimah. You surely can do better now :) I know, it hurts to finally open your heart for someone, let him in and showers him with love, suddenly, he changed. Everything's changed. He doesn't love you, you fight for the relationship, but it failed because it's all one-sided. Sad, hurt, tired, your heart slowly close its gate and is now locked and the key is thrown away, hoping a fine gentleman will find the key and unlock it in the future.

And being harassed and forced to accept an ex after 6 years of not contacting makes it harder for me who just underwent a break up. Weeks passed, I then agreed with my stupid self to try to accept the ex. But I gave no effort in trying to let him in, I want him to do all the magic to reopen my locked heart. Guess what? Last night he totally screw his final chance. I bid my final goodbye to him and asked him to not put high hopes on me any more.

During my mid-sem break, I've a small chat with my PA regarding my grades and all. I will finish my diploma not this semester, but another semester since I will have to do my LI. And I asked if I'm able to continue my degree in UiTM but he said no... because I was barred for a paper last semester and now my future seems extremely dark. My family couldn't afford to send me to a private university, nor I have enough money to pay for myself. Calculating alone, I decided to work for at least 6 months up to 1 year before I finally continue with degree.

2014, and I'm losing the bright and cheerful self. Here in Arau, I live in a rent house full of degree students and my friends are all in residence college. I go to class alone, eat alone, walk alone... I practically live alone. I talk less now, as I have no one to talk to. I smile less now, as I only spend my time with my laptop and phone. Slowly, I'm showing signs of depression. And when I'm depressed, I push all people away, I cut connections, including my parents. It's okay, I have Allah. He can listen to everything that I've been keeping inside my heart.

So, my 2014 resolutions are;

to be closer to Allah,

to be a good daughter,

to earn good money,

to live happily, and

to find my husband-to-be.

2014 started off pretty bad, but I hope it will end with good stuffs, insyaAllah. I know I'm strong, I know I can go through this. No more hurting self, no more deserting self, no more ignoring friends, no more keeping everything to myself. Oh, I hope by the end of 2014, I managed to shed 15kg and look stunning. InsyaAllah.

Okay here's what's up. I have to create a fully functional website (html and php stuffs) and it was awesomely awful. It sucks. What is group assignment when it was done by less than half out of the number of members in the group. That was the screenshot of the main page of the site and honestly, I can't fully credit myself for it. I stole someone's code. Because, we had to. Emergency happened and we're at lost so yeah. But anyway I edited most of them so they shouldn't look the exact same as the original.

It's not like I'm complaining that I have to code. No, I have no problems with that. I love to code. It's fun and everything but here's come the minus point. Why and how can I code the whole section (there are 2 sections, actually) alone by myself without any help from you guys oh yes I do need to complain because this is about my life about my health about my brain power and um no I hate to do other people's job. Please contribute and please offer your help. I don't want to be bossy and say "You, do this and you do that while you need to plan for this."

And then came another shitty major assignment that has nothing to do with my course. I wonder why UiTM is being so stupid and let us to study on few subjects that has no relation to our courses like seriously, UiTM, you suck to the max. You want to help the Malays so it's good but um please, re-revise your policy or whatever since I feel so jealous towards friends who're studying in IPTS and they learned advanced programming stuffs from us? We learnt the most basic ones which, well, from their point of view, is such a waste of time.

To enroll in UiTM for degree is the last option in my list. Serious talk.

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My head suddenly hurts so much I had to lie down and close my eyes to chase the pain away. This isn't good. I've been getting constant headache for days now and I don't think I'll recover soon enough? I sleep too little per day. 2~3 hours of sleep per day is unhealthy for a teen like me. Wait, do I still counted as a teen or am I already in the adult phase? I don't know. Never bother to know about it. Well okay I acknowledged that I am an adult. Hm. I can't think, I should stop. Bye.

P/S: I still like the guy and things are going pretty much well :)

Hey, it's officially 10 days after my birthday. It was the 2nd worst birthday I had in my life. Nothing can beat last year's birthday. It was the worst out of everything. Skip that because I wanted to update with what's happening with my life from the day I turned 20 till today.

7th of July, Sunday

It's my big day, yayyy but I spent most of the time being in the library with my friends, pretending to study since I've finished all my works beforehand. I was really hungry that day because the previous day, I only ate burger bakar. The rest ordered delicious chicken rice but I only ordered iced tea. Spent some good time laughing with friends about stupid stuffs while accompanying them finishing their lunch. Then, we went back to the library. I was watching Happy Camp and laughed alone in the discussion room haha. Around 3pm, I received a text, asking me to go for a sweet escape. Well, it is indeed a sweet escape since we both went to Secret Recipe.

"My treat," he said, since it's my birthday. I ordered a slice of New York cheesecake while he ordered this grilled chicken I forgot the dish's full name haha but it's delicious :( I was a tad shy to order expensive stuffs because it's his money. Not mine. But it was fun, to have someone trying to cheer me up on that gloomy day. That was the only fun moment for the day because I spent the rest of the day being alone at home without foods. It was depressing. It should be my best day but why it turned the other way round?

8th of July, Monday

Class as usual. I ate the foods they brought back from baby Hafiz's birthday party for lunch. It was delicious or maybe because I was too hungry, I ate 2 plates of rice haha. Things went okay... but not during ITS first test ever. It was at night and I felt something wrong with my body. My stomach hurts so much and due to my experience, I knew it'll be bad. After answering the test with empty-headed (means no ilmu lol) we went back home and... yep. I knew it. Food poisoning.

Wasn't a good start for the week, huh? Okay so basically I was in pain because of food poisoning until Friday, which made me to decide to go back home on that day.

12th of July, Friday

My bus was on 10am and since I stayed up all night in the toilet, I was totally knocked out. I slept like it's none of their business. I do not care if I snore or anything. What's important is I have enough sleep before I reach home. I reached Section 17 around 6.30pm, but because my dad was stuck in traffic jam, I reached home after azan maghrib. But still managed to iftar together with family. What makes it special is, my brother in Segamat went back home too. It's beautiful because one whole family were there for iftar and sahur. :')

I did nothing much at home though so skip all schedules at home.

15th of July, Monday

My bus was supposed to depart on 10pm but because of certain circumstances, it was delayed to 11pm not to mention its '30-min break' which literally means "It's 2.30am so we'll have a break for 30 minutes which is until 3.45am" yes the driver can do math really well. Yes.... Anyhow since it was delayed, I asked for McD from my parents and they brought me double cheeseburger aherherher #happygirl93

16th of July, Tuesday

Because of too many stops, I arrived Kangar at 7:35am. Took a taxi home and because the driver didn't know where is Taman Seri Intan situated at and maybe he took advantage for it by going into the wrong direction though I guided him, I was charged RM25.................. Seriously, taxi drivers, NAK DUIT KAU CARI DUIT SECARA HALAL LAH TAK PAYAH NAK TIPU CUSTOMER SAMPAI TAHAP NI AKU NI STUDENT KAU NAK MAKAN DUIT AKU BANYAK SANGAT KENAPA? KAU INGAT AKU NI KAYA? AKU NI BERHUTANG DENGAN ORANG TAH BERAPA BANYAK. BANGANG PUNYA TAXI DRIVERS

Because I stayed awake since 4am in the bus worrying about someone, I felt asleep while trying to get ready for the next class pfft brilliant Kimmy is brilliant I should just die

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Anyhow, I am confused. I think I like someone. I think I fell for him. But I'm trying to fall out of love. I don't want to be in love. I don't want to be fooled. I am afraid that he's nice to me because he only sees me as a best friend while I see it the other way round. I really want to distance myself from him but I can't. We talk to each other every day. Night and day. It's like I wake up and feel excited because I know I will be receiving a text from him.

You know how I rarely talk to people in a day??? I think I only talk to him for the past week or two-three weeks I don't know but yes. Please. Pull me out from this mess. I know he sees me as a friend. This is just one-sided love. I know. I believed so. I don't think anyone will ever fall for me. Well, not now since guys look for appearance and I am fat which means I am unattractive so please.

Baru putus cinta suddenly jumpa new love I know this is absurd but

my parents love him so how?

July 2nd - I decided to skip 2 classes to prepare myself for MUET speaking test and by preparing, I mean, to get enough sleep like a princess. It was written on the slip that my test will be at 11 A.M but oh, I only knew that all tests will start at least 30 minutes after the stated time on the slip after I arrived at the venue. That's the effect of not going to any MUET workshops. I decided to take my MUET at a school which is situated near to my rent house.

I was the second candidate of the first group for my session. Well, supposedly the third candidate but the first candidate couldn't make it on time so we started from the second people in the name list. It was nerve-wrecking when I knew I will be in the first group, but while waiting for it to start, I managed to calm myself and gained extra confidence by simply... Emm, I do not know if I should say this but somehow this technique worked well for me? I decided to look down on other candidates - to make myself looked better - and I felt somewhat confident to delusionally think that I am the best out of them.

We got a quite boring topic; "Most meaningful donation" haha but thankfully I get the easiest point to elaborate, I guess? There are 4 points - organ donation, cash donation, free foods for the poor and equipment for the disabled. Mine was the second point - cash donation - the poison of today's world. I am firm on my opinions and point and managed to conclude that my point is the most meaningful donation out of all, haha. Okay actually it was horrible. I spoke like a somewhat-innocent-yet-scared person being interrogated by policemen.

My test ended on 12 P.M and to reward myself after "working hard" (yeah, really, when I woke up at 10 A.M then rushed for the test) I bought KFC for myself! I long for McDonalds but I will never go to Alor Setar by my own to get it so I have to find other alternatives. I stayed at home, being a lazy fat girl who only knows to be in front of her laptop either to watch a drama or a show. By 2.20 P.M, I received a text saying that I am a possible candidate for gugur taraf and I was like "What the--- I did not pay the UiTM fee yet!" so I rushed to UiTM wearing the ugliest thing I have in this cupboard. I do not care about how I look outside, especially on those moments when I feel lazy to be all pretty and dandy.

After paying the fee, I decided to go for a karaoke session. I know, crazy unplanned plan. I went to the karaoke place alone and had a 1-hour session of karaoke. I, of course, sang mainly Korean songs. I always feel less active if I went to karaoke alone, so I decided to sing slow songs like INFINITE's Paradise. Maybe the guys next door realized I only sing Korean songs, they decided to sing PSY's Gentleman, so I decided to fire them back by singing Faizal Tahir's Sampai Syurga. Hahaha.

Oh, it was actually about to start to rain when I arrived at the karaoke place and so in the middle of singing, it started to rain. I thought the rain would not be for long or too heavy since this is Arau. It usually rains for like, 5 minutes then stopped for weeks. But oh wow, to my surprise, it was the heaviest downpour I had to go through while driving. Seriously. I love to drive in rain but for the first time ever, I found it annoying to drive in heavy rain like that. I barely could see anything! But, despite the heavy downpour, I made my way to Kangar to get some cheesecakes. Hehe. I do not think I will get any cakes on my birthday so I decided to buy it ealier for myself, :P

So... that is how my day goes for the second day of the seventh month. The fact that I used a few words I rarely use everywhere is in this post... was this because of MUET? Look at how long this post is (minus the pictures, it is still long) it's like I was inspired by something to write a new blog post. Or was it because it is already July and I feel happy because it is, you know, July? Haha ways to confuse myself. I really should write more and more for this blog. I really feel calm whenever I write while listening to songs. It's like, I feel I am in the song, going for an adventure and write about what I get from the adventure. It is weird too since the things I write and the lyrics of the songs I listen to do not match well. 

By the way, I watched Psychometry just now. It was a really great Korean movie about an ability that can see the past by having a physical contact on an unknown objects. At first, I thought that he could only read human's past, but I was wrong. He could see everything by touching, everything. If he touched a bird, he saw what the bird saw. If he touched an object, he saw what the object witnessed. Yeah I know, how can a non-living object be a witness but with his ability, he could see what it see. Of course, you are not perfect. He has flaws, which, he uses too much energy to see the past and it made he bleeds from his nose and mouth. Horrible, which is why he avoids to touch anything.

So the screencap above is a scene in Psychometry, which a policemen tried to grab a suspect by grabbing his........ you know what. Anyhow, it is a good movie and you will not disappoint with its plot. Sadly though, there is no English subtitles available for it. Luckily I understood few Korean words so watching it raw without subs is okay but, it will be way better to fully understand the movie, no?

Movie recommendation of the day: Psychometry (literal translation) / The Gifted Hands

Song recommendation of the day: ChoColat - Black Tinkerbell

Jengka with its disruption of water supply problem plus the increasing temperature for Malaysians... I'm having a big problem in adapting with this problem. I'm literally swimming in my sweat. I smell so bad because of sweating excessively and this big fan in the room can't even solve this problem for me. I NEED TONS OF WATER AND ICE FOR BATHING PURPOSES and I am not joking. Really thought of swimming in a bathtub containing ice cubes. Damn. Or sliding on an ice cube naked. Or to bury myself in snow. 

Addicted to these kids. The main casts and their siblings. Too adorable to be ignored. This show helps a lot to strengthen the bond between a father and his children. One of the kids was really scared of his father, and because of this show, he became so close to his father and began to show his affection to him, same goes to his father. Who says watching Korean variety/reality shows give you nothing but bullshit? Well at least I learn a lot from those "shitty" Korean variety shows.

If only any Malaysians thought of coming up with great variety/reality shows, that would be great. I don't watch stupid shows like 'Betul ke Bohong?', 'Lawak Ke Der?', 'Maharaja Lawak', and etc. I don't even watch Malay drama hahaha because Malaysia itself is full of drama. Okay end I will never talk about politic.

Just wanted to update my blog with nothing but full of crap that doesn't even describe about my day. #okay

Hello, peeps.

I am now in Jengka, doing a short semester program (intersession) to retake MAT233 (Calculus 2) which I failed before. Today is officially my fourth day in UiTM Pahang, though intersession just started yesterday. After 3 semesters being a non-resident back in Arau, I got to feel being a resident, again. I was placed at room A3-40, Block A (Aishah), Kolej Tun Teja.

Yes, I'd love to compare both campuses I've been to (UiTM Perlis and UiTM Pahang).

Plus points for UiTM Pahang from my point of view

1. There are 10 colleges available for girls. T-E-N, 10! 8 were new and the other 2 (which one of them is where I am now) were the old college. 
2. For academic blocks, well, since my class is held only at FTA2-16 in the Fast Track building (its 'scientific' name is Leucaena) is okay. Reminds me of UiTM Perlis' Star Complex but way smaller than it. They have this newly built academic building and its situated on top of a small hill - not that high but will be a tiring adventure for those going to class by foot.
3. It is advisable for you to go to classes by foot since the short cuts are truly... short? You can see a major difference if you go by car and by foot. For me, I will usually go to morning class by foot and drive for evening class.
4. Marrybrown is in town like hello they have 3 options for fast foods: KFC, PHD and MB! Beat that, Arau! (Ehem food is important for a fat girl like me ehehew)

Less than 5 days to reach the end of this semester. If I score this semester's finals and get good result, I will only have 1 semester left for diploma. Which means, soon, I will be parting ways with my diploma friends. I might, and might not see them again. I might and might not be in their minds all the time, but after experiencing lots of hardships in finding true friends, I began to treasure some of my diploma's course mates.

Some, not all.

Semester 1 - Seeing new faces for the first time ever. Heard that some of my primary school friends were in the same campus, but only 1 of them is in the same course as mine, which is Amnan. I wasn't close to him since before, so I rarely talk to him. This first semester of diploma; fresh and new chapter of my life begun. I made some friends during orientation week but those friends won't last long. Proven now, though, none of them thought of contacting me first. For the first semester, I was close to Farhana, well basically, with the girls (and boys) in my group. Zharfan, Luqmanul and Zhafri, not to mention the rest, were the closest one to me. Before.

Semester 2 - Kicked out from the resident list so I lived my life as a non-resident instead, and I became closer to Amalina since we lived in the same area. We were the total opposite of each other but like magnet that attracts other magnet with opposite magnetic field; we attract each other because of the difference in our characteristics. Hah, I was close to Nabihah too, since we're like the non-resident team-thingy hahaha. Old times. I became quite distant with others since they're in resident colleges while I... I was alone in the house with literally no housemates since they went out a lot.

Semester 3 - Where everything falls apart. This happened and that happened, suddenly I hate Nabihah while Amalina and I became strangers again, nearing the end of the semester. This was the worst semester, for the record. Bad things happened - I lost my motivation, I lost hope, I lost trust on people, but I gained a car to ease me travelling in Perlis (and Kedah and Penang...) I knew cool guys from other groups and began to hang out with them quite often too. I am not that close to them, but to just be friends with them, I feel so happy :)

Semester 4 - The level of awkwardness between groupmates increased and the distantce between us became larger as well. I moved to a new house and lived together with Aida. New adventure, again. We became the new inseparable twins(?) since most of the times, I'll be seen together with Aida and vice versa. We share so many things in common and it's freaky oh my god! Haha. This semester is a bit plain. All I feel is the gap between other friends and I became deeper and larger. At times, I feel like I'm better off a loner. Without partner.

Ah... Time passes by, cruelly nearing catching up with the time for us to part ways. Yes, I can't wait to graduate and to be away from Perlis because of all the terrible things happened but I couldn't just forget all good friends I met here, right? I just hope that I will always be in their minds, as how often they are in my mind.

Farhana, the cheeky, petite Malay, blessed with Chinese-look.

Aida, the one with brain that I'm jealous of.

Zuhairah, the one who looks the happiest while eating.

Luqmanul, the... the... the bro that loves to belanja people.

Azri, the one perasan artis but full of humorous jokes.

Amnan, the childhood friend who became nice to me :P

Fauzan, the budak I thought sombong but he's humorous and nice.

Syauqi, the one whom I put my full trust in driving my car.

Izwan, the only guy I respected among all - he has good sides despite looking so rempit-ish.

Okay malas nak sebut nama sorang sorang because honestly, I'm not that close to all people pun. It happens that some of the names are listed as they love to borrow my car so they act so baik to me but they are kind so I like them for their kindness hahaha but I will always remember your kindness, the way you treat me. Yay what's with this crappy entry, it's supposed to be emotional and sad and tear-worthy *cries* Tapi aku sayang korang tau, muehehe segan nk cakap okay bye

Gonna hop to convenience store to chill. Kinda. Bye :D

I actually love to talk. At times, I recorded videos of myself talking nonsense and linked them to my friends hahaha which is, a stupid habit, actually. But because of this hobby, I thought of making vlog. Travel vlog, to be exact. As I'm currently studying in Arau, Perlis, I've went to many interesting places and when I wanted to tell about them to my friends, I know they won't have the same image like what I wanted them to imagine to. They couldn't see what I see, they couldn't feel what I feel. So I thought that doing travel vlog is actually a good thing.

Thing is, I have no suitable gadgets for it. I am still collecting money to own a DSLR, as videos recorded by DSLR has a higher quality...? The current camcorder at home can only recorded in low quality. It's not HD. Thus, less feel for the video hahaha do you get what I mean? Like during my trip to Bukit Ayer with classmates before, one of them recorded random videos of us having fun using a DSLR and it comes out really pretty! The super high quality makes it really breathtaking! Wait what, I feel like my English became worst ohmygod

Nahh I won't be like matluthfi since I don't have the skill to be a good vlogger. My communication skills sucks big time, and travel vlog is the best choice for me because I will be recording the sceneries and the details of the places more than I will record myself hahaha agree? And oh, besides travel vlog, I'd upload videos of my hedgehog as well! I already created a Youtube account for it, oops, sorry for being impatient haha.

Okay so let's end the talks of wanting to be a vlogger.

I am actually worried for so many things. Like, I tried my best for this examination but somehow I feel like I will fail certain subjects? I have the confidence that I can actually score but for the previously mentioned 2 subjects, I have the least confidence in them. What if I had to extend 1 semester just to sit for a single paper? What if my parents had enough with me, and eventually will never care about me, the one who always frustrates them in any way?

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I just got a really shocking news that made me stopped writing my entry for I don't know how many minutes. Anyway, my sister, Shiema, got a really awesome news that she is accepted to be a student in the course she applied for so go and wish her the best!!!! And this marks the end of my entry. I need to study for tomorrow's paper.

Hello,

Wow it's the 6th day of April and I only blogged once in March. Nice. I love being a busy student. Looks like I only able to change the skin for April but not for March :( So yeah, Luhan for April! Why, you ask? He's born in April :)

So, anyway, I'm currently sitting for my finals. Tomorrow, 7th of April, I will be sitting for my fourth paper and also my father's birthday! I don't have anything as present, though. This is me. I'm literally awkward with my parents. I promised them to increase my CGPA and GPA for this semester, but I'm afraid I couldn't achieve that later. I have 2 papers with the least confidence - Linear Algebra I and Practical Approach of Operating Systems.

For Linear Algebra - I admit, I have no idea about the main thing of this subject. All I know it's related to matrices. It was my first paper, and I faced it with obstacles. I was struggling to get all the formulas, I was dying inside to resolve the questions. And I'm doomed. Pretty much sure that I failed big time. I couldn't manage to answer all questions in time given. I'm sorry, mom and dad, I've let you down, again.

For Practical Approach of Operating Systems - let's be honest, it's not that hard. It's pretty much simple but the main problem lies on the lecturer. Our tests and quizzes were marked strictly by following the answer sheet 100%, so those who use different words from the scheme will be deducted marks. And hey, I cheated during the test - I answered by referring to the slides he gave and guess what, the answers are all wrong. I got 8 and a half over 50 for that test. Bam.

I'm doomed. We're doomed. I hope that he will change that attitude of his and try to be more acceptable with students' answers. This is his first semester of teaching - I understood, but I never thought he will be this bad. I mean, younger lecturers are supposed to be more flexible and understand the students more? No?

Anyway, I need to revise for tomorrow with full concentration now. No more playing around. I will try to score no matter what. I've been a really bad student for this semester. Hm.

Hello, I am supposed to be studying for a test that will be held later tonight and I have 2 projects awaiting me to be finished and here I am, typing this motiveless entry because I feel tired of studying.

I slept on 7:30AM last night just because I was adjusting my itinerary and budget and stuffs and around 7AM, I was stuck in organizing the trip for the 4th day and onwards. I had to dig more and more tourist spots and heck, it gave me a major headache! I slept until 12PM (because I'm a princess wuhuu) and I went out to Kangar to meet my friend.

I spent my evening with a group discussion which was spent mostly on eating and playing games and talking nonsense and watching animes and thinking of our future... And this one friend of mine has the craziest mind on programming, like, he's really great in it but he doesn't want to continue learning Computer Science for degree. He's interested in learning languages which is so like me. But I decided to choose the other way - I mean, I'd love to continue my degree with any courses related to Computer Science. 

By the way, I keep playing on this song the whole day! Standing Still by U-KISS. It's a Korean group but don't worry because most of the members speak English and the song has more English lyrics which makes it easier to sing along to it :)

I am actually feeling so hungry right now. I was bloated on dinner time because I ate so much during the day but c'mon scumbag stomach why do you have to feel hungry now? I don't even have the guts to go out to buy foods :( And stupid me for browsing my gallery and I saw the picture of burger bakar I took before. The patty is so fat oh my god

Hehehe I ordered double patties and managed to slice only 1 patty that time XD But look, it looks so fat omg omg omg drooling :Q___________________

Oh ya I know I'm supposed to edit my blog since it's March already but arghh I don't really have time to, you know, to make my blog pretty and flashy and grand or whatever. If I ever have time to edit and stuffs then I will. Mehh I still haven't finish my HTML project and my work is to design the template and such. Crying. I love coding but why it has to take lots of energy bla bla bla okay  no more complaining.

You know what I feel so awkward to end my entry like all the time :( I don't know what should I say or what should I put or what should I express so since I don't know anything, I should just put a picture of my lock screen

...because gorgeous Kim Jaeseop hehehehe okay bye XD

Not gonna write a long essay in this post, will be posting mostly pictures (again). I'm reconsidering certain universities in Korea for my degree, insyaAllah, so this will be the list of universities with the courses or major that I'm interested in. I'll be narrowing the list down after I do the pros and cons of going to each university. 

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Hongik University - 

So last Friday night, my course had a dinner for this semester. The theme was Red de Luna, which, if it's translated in English, means Red Moon. It is actually based on vampires, and the original name was Bloody Moon. Since it's inspired by vampires, the main colours for that night are red, black and white.

I've uploaded most the pictures on Facebook but um, let's serve you with few pictures of me on that night :)

Hello,

It's been a while since the last post. I've been busy with studies these few days. Okay, not really. I was sick for a week, that explains my unproductiveness for the whole week. I studied, (and skipped classes, boohoo) took my BB1M vouchers, went to eat KFC, Dominos, PHD, nasi kandar, roti canai and etc., and finally it's time to go back home!

A week of break for Chinese New Year. Yay me in a monotonous tone because I have to spend most of the times being alone. Sucks, I know right? Family (parents and brothers) will be doing their umrah for 2 weeks, and unfortunately I was not included in the list. 

Anyway, we'll be depart around 10:30 AM or so because the boys aren't as punctual as I am so I don't really expect that they will get ready on time. Hopefully they won't delay our ride to Shah Alam because I want to be at home as early as I can!

I was actually trying to come up with more topics to blog but it seems like I have none so I wanted to write, but I don't really know what to write about. I might ask for my brother's English paper for SPM and write one or more essays. Teehee. I am that rajin especially during holidays.

Not really.

Urgh, c'mon brain, do your job. Think brain, think.

Okay so my brain isn't working properly as it's 20 minutes to 4am and I have class on 8am and I have to go back on 10am or so and I have to sleep and I have to wake up with a bright smile on my face because a smile is sadaqah and it will lighten up my mood for the whole day. Yay for a long sentence!

Will be updating more entries (anticipate for it!) when I get home with faster internet connection. I know I have a small circle of friends who read this blog, so thank you for reading :) Me love you hihihi okay bye.

I will be graduating from diploma most probably in this October, probably and hopefully it will be in this year. I know I still have around 9 more months to think of where should I go for degree, but you see, I've been worrying about my future so much that I've went surveying best universities that put my course as their priority.

After days of sleepless night (because I was too immersed in researching), for local university, I will choose Multimedia University (MMU) as the one that I want to be apart of. It's been said that MMU provides the best facilities for anyone who wants to advance in faculty of engineering and technology and also faculty of computing and informatics. MMU is Malaysia's first private university which was set up through Universiti Telekom Sdn Bhd, a wholly owned subsidiary of TM. 

Since it's a private university, the fees is quite high for an average human being like me. Hearing rumours that alumni and even current students of MMU have been calling it as "Money Making University" since they used students' money quite a lot...? And truth be told, I heard bad rumours about MMU despite its high achievement in education. Sometimes, I feel hesitant about my choice to be in MMU for degree because of those weird rumours going around but I guess I should not feel that way, as the reason why I diligently study now is to be admitted to MMU.

But it's never wrong to make plan B, so I thought of surveying overseas universities as well.

Being the child of alumni of Acadia University, I began to do my research on my desired course there. Seems interesting, since it's located in Canada. Earlier this month, I e-mailed one of the university's representative and asked about scholarship and the award for alumni's child and I got the reply this morning and guess what? Since I was born in Canada, I am still considered as a Canadian. Which means, I only need to pay for fees in the same amount of other Canadians and will not be charged as a foreigner. Looks good, right?

Everything looked as fluffy as cotton candy but my imagination was ruined after I converted Canadian Dollar to Ringgit Malaysia. My dream, my hope, they crushed into pieces, literally. The tuition fees alone reached tens of thousands, I can't imagine the total I had to pay including airplane tickets, dormitory fees, meal fees, registration fees, etc. No, I would rather go elsewhere and let go of my dream to go back to my birthplace. Sorry, Acadia University :(

So I heard that studying in Asian countries are way cheaper so I went lurking around the sites of famous universities in Korea. I've been doing that since 2010, but my heart is really fond of Yonsei University for an unknown reason. To compare being accepted by MMU and Yonsei, I will say that I'm dying to be known as one of Yonsei students :( I tried to convert the tuition fees from Korean Won to Ringgit Malaysia, and I can say that somehow it is cheap. Well, at least still cheaper than Acadia's. That was tuition fees alone so I don't know how much the total fees will be.

...so I was on Google Image for Yonsei and Acadia images and wow, they were located on such beautiful landscapes! My photographer heart, please keep calm :'( Look at Yonsei! Look at how delicious-looking autumn colours painted the whole campus! So beautiful, mother of nature. But then, I was reminded that Acadia University was first established on year 1838 and it is said that Yonsei was one of the oldest university in Korea. Hmmm, older universities with beautiful landscape... /eyeing the somewhat new MMU/

So, well yeah. I've narrowed down my choice to this 3 universities. I talked to my parents about MMU and it seems like they're okay with that, let's see what is their reaction if I voiced out my opinion about studying in either Acadia and Yonsei. Hmm.

Last Friday, my friends and I went to Padang Besar, Perlis. First of all, what Padang Besar is all about and where does Padang Besar situated at?

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It was my first time ever going to Padang Besar, so I couldn't help but to feel excited and anticipated for the journey to the border of Thailand. Around 2.30pm, Aida, who is my roommate and also classmate, together with myself, departed to Cengal 7 and waited for the guys before we finally went to Padang Besar.

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We actually went through Chuping, the hottest place and the biggest sugarcane plantation in Malaysia. It took around 1 hour to arrive at Arked Niaga Padang Besar, but wow, the scenery throughout the journey wow-ed the inner photographer in me. It's sad that I don't bring any cameras along, because the nature beauty caught my eyes the most.

I was welcomed with shops selling various kinds of outfits, shoes, bags, jewellery... you name it. I was actually confused whether we're in the Malaysia side or the Thailand side because when I checked in on foursquare, it said that it was my first time in Thailand. Hahaha maybe I checked in on the wrong border XD


I noticed that the Thais are fond of scooters (as shown in picture above) and there were lots of scooters around the arcade. Our main objective going to Padang Besar was to buy jerseys, and so we set foot in shops that sell mainly jerseys. I bought 4 jerseys overall; 1 Malaysia's newest jersey in blue for my youngest brother, 1 Chelsea's jersey for myself, 2 Manchester United's jerseys for him and myself. 4 jerseys for RM110, I don't know if it's consider as cheap but that's affordable compared to buying jerseys from other places.


The guys bought lots of jerseys to be very honest, and the total jerseys bought by us on that day was 22! I was really shocked to see how shopaholic the guys are when it comes to jerseys. On the way back, we stopped at Dataran Terinai, Perlis which is situated near to Empangan Timah Tasoh. Beautiful sceneries, again, but I only managed to take only 1 picture because of my phone died quite a few times throughout the journey. Scumbag phone...


We stopped by at Aida's house in Kangar as she wanted to take few things from her home, and we were invited to have cekodok pisang and tea. The guys acted all shy and giddy, I couldn't believe that they are the same guys I've known for almost 2 years and counting. Haha.

We then continued our journey to Kuala Perlis for dinner. As it's already Maghrib, we stopped to pray at Masjid al-Hussain, Kuala Perlis. I've went there for few times but its beauty shines the best each time I went there.

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We had our dinner at the KOMALAUT, or Kompleks Makanan Laut, situated nearby. Good foods, good service, I guess, since we went there on Friday. Hence, less people visits Kuala Perlis on that day.

Overall, I had fun. I enjoyed myself, and though how tiring it was, going for a trip with my friends never makes me feel disappointed. I'm seeking for future trips with you guys, or even more people. Thank you Irfan, Luqman, Aida, Farhan, Nazri and Ammar!